THAT MOM! You know the one that comes into the school and they go, "Oh here comes.. THAT MOM, again." Oh, as I sit here crying and wondering how to help my little peanut through a difficult time, I ask myself, "How did I become the "that Mom?" Karsyn is having a very hard time in school this year. Tears almost everyday. Benjy and I have prayed about it, the family has prayed for her and we have tried the (give her more love) the (tough love) the (give her something lucky) the (praise for a good day) the (let's talk about it) the (let's not talk about it) approach, and we are out of ideas.
Today we went to have lunch with her to help her get over her fear of eating hot lunch at her new school. Thinking that she has been having better days, were surprised when the teacher came up to us and in front of Karsyn tells us that there were tears again, today.
Which of course set Karsyn into a whole new set of tears and as we hugged her and turned to walk out of the lunch room to go, she is now in a full out bawling session.
Of course Benjy's reaction is to say, "I knew, we shouldn't have come." My reaction was to go straight to the office and yes, I became the "that mom." I was doing okay until the secretary told me, "Well, my daughter cried all through Elementary and still cries about going to school as a teenager. That's just the way it is." Ummmmm... let's just say, I felt myself get a little warmer and explained that this wouldn't be acceptable to have my daughter, who went to 2 years of preschool and a year of Kindergarten and never cried, now coming to school crying everyday.
Ugh.!!! I felt the need to explain to the Principal, as a teacher it was a lot easier to problem solve and work through this with my students. It is a lot harder to work through seeing your own child heart broken and feeling like I can't fix it. I know some of you are thinking... that I just need to get use to it, right? Funny how as a parent I feel so inadequate sometimes in some areas and so confident in others. This would be one of those feeling inadequate times....